What in the world was I thinking?

At least, that's what I was thinking when I got done filling out my world race application.
I suppose I should back up a bit... in small group we were reading the book "In a pit with a Lion on a Snowy day" (which I recommend every Christian should read) and in my own personal time I've been reading "Four Souls", which is a story about four guys who took their own personal trip around the globe to minister to different places (which I recommend every Christian MISSIONARY should read) . . . (consequently, I'm also reading Brisingr, in case you were wondering.) but I digress..
Anyway, those books seemed to fuel this little fire I've had inside me since I came home from another great (but not glorious) summer in Bolivia. I really feel God has called me to missions, and so I've been putting my little "feelers" out there, attempting to find something to do or somewhere to go. Everything I've looked at has ended up with a resounding door slam and God saying (audible at times) "Wait. Just Wait."
Arrgh. Groan. And then the inevitable sigh as I acquiesce.
However.
The fire flared as I finished reading "In a pit with a Lion," as the last words in the book are: "Maybe its time to start chasing God again. Maybe its time to seize God-ordained opportunities. Maybe its time to unleash the lion chaser within. Chase the lion! Its what you are destined to do."
I kid you not, I literally put the book down, picked up my laptop, and googled "Free Mission Trips."
I know missions cost money, but I don't have any. I just wanted to get out and serve.
One of the links said: "Free World Race", which I thought looked interesting. So I clicked on that. It took me to the World Race website, which I admit, reminded me a little bit of that show, "The Amazing Race" on tv. Turned out, the FREE part of that link had to do with winning a free ticket into the World Race in 2006, so that was over and done with. Yet my interest was already peaked, so I kept looking.
Mission trip? Yes. 11 countries? Wow. 11 months? BIG WOW. Next team was leaving in January, and the application had to be completed by October 15th.
I looked at the date. It was October 14th.
Without thinking at ALL, ashamedly without praying, I completed the application and even paid my $39 application fee, praying it wouldn't be for naught.
So far, it hasn't. I've had a few unusual things happen since then, such as it seems that everyone I know, KNOWS someone who is either ON the World Race currently or someone who has been or going. Even a guy in my small group went last year.
WHAT? How did I miss that little tidbit??
The day after I filled out my application, I kid you not, I got a fortune cookie, and inside the fortune said: "Wish you a good journey." Wow.
I don't believe in coincidences, have I shared that yet?
I even had an especially frustrating moment, where I was sitting in my kitchen, waiting for the World Race crew to call me for my interview, and as the time came and passed without a phone call, I remember crying. I heard God say, "This isn't it." And instead of fighting Him this time, I was like, "Fine Lord. Then what? What would you have me do? I'm ready, I'm willing, I'm able, so what?"
The next day I was graced with two emails from the World Racers, telling me they've scheduled TWO phone calls at different times. I was really confused. "I thought you said this wasn't it?" I asked God. He responded with a feeling of "I just wanted to see if you were willing to give it up if I told you no."
So here I am. I've been accepted to go on the June 2010 World Race. I have no idea what that means yet.
But I'm starting to find out.