Be my heart tonight

Oh my God,
Please be my heart tonight.
I am broken and poured out before you.
Your cup is so bitter, like fire
but I know it is melting my heart within me.
The cold granite soul within me is dying.
I need you be my life.
The people who surround me,
are they friends or enemies? I cannot tell.
They love me and hate me one in the same,
tearing my flesh to pieces.
They don't even know,
they don't even know how their ragged tongues lash so fierce.
Not that they care if they did.
Where did I go astray?
What life is this for your child?
So abandoned and alone,
cursing the day of their birth,
wondering what purpose there is in this pain.
So be my heart tonight, oh Lord.
You have shut the mouths of the prideful,
crushed the heads of the oppressive,
and shamed the intelligence of the wise.
And for these things, I praise You.
Now please, if You are willing,
be my heart tonight, for I have not one of my own.
I have given it away to so many loves,
and not one has returned in kind.
Forgive me for being a foolish lover,
for now I have nothing to give You.
So You, my God, will have to be my heart,
if You require a heart to follow you.
Or I will remain like dry bones,
lifeless save for the tears.
I fear that I cannot sleep in hopes of the dawn.
If I survive the night without You,
will You still love me in the morning?
The devil says You won't.
Why is it so easy to listen to lies?
So please, be my heart tonight my Lord,
For I want to love again,
but I cannot right now.
You will have to beat for me,
or my death will surely follow.
Maybe when I awake, I will feel again.