A prayer of mourning

LORD
Let me die tonight
take my life tonight
I'm so tired of this sadness
and I just don't feel alright

I'm not fooled by this world anymore
There is no love here anymore
I'm so tired of being forgotten
my heart is so raw and sore

You have forgotten me
You followers they hate me
I'm limping through this life
Did You ever make me free?

So let me close my eyes forever
so I can live forever
and feel real Love for once
and be with You forever

yet
Should I open my eyes in the morning
I will open them with mourning
knowing another day will pass
another day spent running

For to die is gain
and to live is pain
but I will believe the Truth
that all this suffering is not in vain.